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and he seemed more inclined and he seemed more to say, ‘Well, do these things and we are not ready to discuss things yet.’ He didn’t seem in a very talkative mood. He was more interested in my performing these exercises than discussing. He came over and his, what I perceive to be hands, in what I perceive to be head, although this was not really related to a physical body. When he did that I could immediately feel these changes in awareness. Some of the states I went through were very specially disoriented to where I really could not determine up from down to sideways or anywhere else. Where I seem to be twisting and kind of rotating specially. Until I just lost any kind of sense of orientation. The fact that I was aware that the states were changing and relating them to my changing internal states seemed to be the lesson. Just to observe this.” SS/JCA 7:45 MIN #318 “I have just experienced being sucked in a long tube and pushed the other way. I’m like in a cocoon. My hands feel they are clasped up tight. Remember doing that before. Feels kind of neat. Now I’m standing on my head. Now on my side … darkness. But now I’m floating but I’m in something. I feel someone looking at me. Watching over me. Several people rode watching over me. They are looking down. Looking down but they came to see me. No figure, just communication, just his presence. I can see where we are going, or can I see the rest, or can they come here? He said no, they want to watch me. They want to watch me in this limbo. Now they are all circled around, bending over, and now they are touching me. But I didn’t see them. Feel them. They are nice, warm friendly folk … friendly hands, but they were hands leading me someplace. Their presence was all around me leading me someplace. He … it cares about me. The first thing that came is that we’re part of one another. But we are kind of lost in communicating with one another. It’s there on the tip but it’s not out in the open. The white presence is trying to help us or pushing me. It’s kind of a transparent, feeling me. … You’re going to laugh at this. I’ve been practicing going in and out