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masters speak of?” I framed that question to the good-looking person in the room with me. For some reason, I didn't come up with the idea of doing something else... Besides, I'm married. But my question was heard, and the answer followed ... What I then experienced has no parallels in everyday life. Moreover, those feelings cannot be expressed in words human language simply lacks the ability to communicate such concepts, but I'll try. It was as if I were turned inside-out. Everything outside of me turned out to be inside of me, including the stars, galaxies, and other worlds - in short, the entire material Universe. And this ALL was collapsed to such small proportions that it all could have fit into the eye of a needle. And I, being outside this material universe, was looking at it simultaneously from all sides, even though I do not have hundreds of millions of eyes. I was one large field encompassing the space around this compressed universe, and able to take it all in at once visually! I myself was endless, I had no boundaries in space or time. All around was stillness, and I myself was this stillness. Contemplating this universe brought the realization that through effort, I could turn into NOTHINGNESS. Next thought - but then there would be nothing to do the contemplating? Then, I became like a funnel collecting in from the perimeters of my universe, whirling inside it, pulling all in deeper and deeper, until I lay on the bed as I had been after having "answered nature's call" (M.R.: no re-entering). This vision moved me so much that I already couldn't sleep, I just wanted to run outside and jump for joy and delight. I wanted to tell everyone about my experience, and simply share it but I realized I would be taken for a schizophrenic. And that's more or less how I lived from that point on, often recalling that vivid experience, and treasuring it in the depths of my soul. I dreamt nearly every day about having a similar experience again - until I discovered the indirect techniques. Roman Reutov Samara, Russia