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I have found that the natural energy-substance of the inner dimensions appears as cloudlike forms of energy. In a sense, this energy is an easily manipulated radiation of light. It appears that the building blocks of the unseen dimensions are not particles (atoms and quarks) but waves or frequencies of energy and light. When I examined the energy clouds, it became apparent that they exist as clusters of raw, unformed energy—much like holograms that are slowly growing and changing in form and density. Journal Entry, April 12, 1991 I feel the vibrations and will myself to the foot of the bed. I feel a little hazy and out of focus, so I immediately demand complete clarity. Instantly, my conscious mind seems to snap in gear; my thoughts become clear. My mind is alive and racing with excitement as I say to myself, “This is better than my physical brain.” Suddenly I feel an intense inner need to discover my past life. Spontaneously I say loudly, “I need to know my past life.” Instantly, there’s a sensation of inner motion and I find myself in a completely new environment. I’m surrounded by an incredible scene of destruction. As I look down a long city street I see nothing but demolished buildings. I realize that my upper body is extending through the hatch of a tank. Then it hits me that I’m seeing through the eyes of this other man— the soldier. I am this man; I feel his thoughts and emotions. I’m extremely arrogant and self-assured and feel strangely powerful as I look at the burning buildings and rubble around me. I’m proud of what I’ve done. I’m a tank commander, a German panzer commander. Somehow I know that the city is Warsaw, Poland, and that my soldiers and I have just conquered it. My tank grinds to a halt at the center of what used to be a major city intersection. Several tanks around me fire, and entire blocks of buildings collapse before me. I am pleased with myself. Holding some kind of device, I bark orders to a tank on my right. As I look at my arm, I notice that my uniform is black and is covered with gray powder. Suddenly, an intense sense of motion, like a vacuum, snaps me back into my physical body. I open my eyes and feel a numbness and tingling as I reunite with the physical. I’m startled and amazed at the intensity of the experience. I was not just an observer but an active participant. For a few moments I felt what this man felt—I was this man. I feel disappointed with myself; I had envisioned myself as something more than an arrogant German officer. Maybe this explains my current antiwar sentiment and also my fascination with World War II documentaries. If this German tank commander was indeed my last physical life, I wonder just how much of him influences me now. A realization sweeps through me that he may affect me more than I would like to admit. As I look at myself as objectively as possible, a flood of new insights comes to light. I seriously wonder just how arrogant, demanding, and aloof I am now. Do I still bark orders and expect to be instantly obeyed? I wonder just how much of me is influenced and molded by my past. How strong is this influence? It appears that an unlimited amount of self-knowledge is available if we are willing to pursue it. I can’t help but be curious. How many past lives have I experienced? How deeply have they influenced me? How much could I learn from knowing the answers? Journal Entry, December 7, 1992 I enter the vibrational state and float approximately two feet above my body. Determined to experience my finer vibratory body, I say aloud, “I experience my higher body.” After a brief sensation of motion, I’m floating in a different form. I feel calm and energized and sense a smoother internal energy. Inwardly, I know I’ve shifted to my inner energy-body. But I feel out of sync and my vision is hazy, so I demand complete clarity of awareness, “Clarity now!” Immediately my thoughts are clear. I feel extremely light and overflowing with energy. At that moment, my goal flashes in my mind: “I wish to visit another system.” Instantly, I’m moving through a dark void at incredible speed. At first I’m startled by the speed, but I relax and adapt to the new sensations. Within seconds I’m floating in space. I look down at myself and see that there is little to see: my form has no arms or legs; I’m like a spherical form of conscious energy. For some reason, I’m nor surprised—it seems completely natural that arms and legs are unnecessary in whatever state I’m in. I slowly rotate and focus on the spectacular sights around me. In awe, I stare at things I’ve never even imagined before. Clusters of lights are everywhere, thousands of them, like Christmas lights strung across the heavens. I feel as if I’m floating in an ocean of lights. My attention is diverted to something I have never seen before: a hazy foglike form is visible. The form extends as far as I can see. It looks like an immense curtain of dense fog except that it appears stable, a permanent fixture hanging in space. I ask for clarity and find myself floating at a different vantage point, several miles from the hazy form. Now I see it more clearly. It’s larger than my mind can comprehend, stretching across the heavens like an endless border. Suddenly, I sense the vibrational energy of someone close by, an intense radiation without form or substance. I am instantly aware of communication, like a series of clear pictures appearing in my mind. The following is a little disjointed but as close as words can explain the inner meaning of the pictures. “Beautiful, is it not?” I roll over to see who it is. My awareness is blinded by the intensity of the light. I begin to back away and shield myself from the crushing energy. The entity continues to communicate with my mind. “I will adjust.” The radiation immediately diminishes. I can’t perceive a form, only light. “I have no form as you understand it. Form is unnecessary. Not many of your kind venture this far in.” I am unable to respond—my mind is overwhelmed, and I don’t know where to begin. The energy being must sense my dilemma and begins to respond. “What you see before you is one of many wonders of the universe. The infinity of fog you see is one of the many inner membranes dividing different frequencies of the universe. What you are witnessing is the inner structure of the universe. The stars and galaxies you see in the distance are but the outer crust of the universe. The key to true exploration is the movement through the energy membranes. As you move farther inward, toward the source, your internal energy frequency must change accordingly. You can only cross through the energy barriers that are in accordance with your inner light. What you see before you is the key to stability and structure throughout the universe.” 16