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the arm, and took him up to the mirror. I was then thinking, "So maybe he'll see himself in the mirror and become conscious while in my phase?" We stood in front of the mirror, and I saw our reflections diffusing. I figured that I had been unsuccessful once again, and so I let him go. But I resolved to crawl into the mirror myself in order to translocate. I got up onto the table, put my hand into the mirror, and started moving in head-first. I suddenly realized that the mirror was "closed" - that there was nothing but darkness and a wall behind it, and thus I wouldn't be able to translocate anywhere. I then opted to employ the technique of "rotation". I started turning and imagining a favorite birch-tree forest from one of my travels in the phase. I really wanted to go there again. I turned and turned, but could not enter into the forest, even thought it was vividly flashing before my eyes. I was unable to come to a halt in time. In the end, I landed in my mother's apartment. There was a toy stuffed rabbit lying on the floor. I took it by the hand, figuring that if I started to lose the phase, I would fiddle with it in order to stay in. Then, I saw another mirror on the wall, and decided to have a look at my reflection. I looked, but the reflection was not of me, but of some blurred creature, like a ghost. I even became somewhat frightened. That fear returned me back to the body (or so I thought while still in the phase), with the stuffed animal still in my hands. I found myself back on my bed, but I didn't give up there. I decided to try another way to get my boyfriend to join me in the phase (after all, it gets lonely walking around all alone there!). I grabbed his hands and started sliding out of bed. We actually fell off the bed, but did not land on the floor. It was as if we had fallen from a cliff, and were suspended in air. Even though it was dark in the room that we were sleeping in, there was daylight all around us during our fall. Everything was really bright, much brighter than in the experience that I had just had. I was sure that I had been successful in pulling him into the phase with me! But then I saw that the arms holding me were clearly not his. I lowered my eyes, and saw that I was embracing another man!